I'm jumbled.

It's because I'm sick. I always feel jumbled when I'm sick. Its that awful feeling of having so much to do and wanting to be able to get up and do it, but having no energy or real desire to accomplish it once you do make it out of bed. I've had this feeling for a while now. Some call it laziness. I call it sinus headaches. This week its peaked, and I've attempted to stay mostly unconscious to avoid the coughing and the watery eyes. However, the weekend finally came and now I have to go to work. Still not feeling really up to it, but these things happen.

So, now here it is, two weeks of class left and finals looming the week after. And I've accomplished nothing. I'm behind on work study, homework, and other random things keep popping up. I should be excited because this sudden increase of things to finish means that graduation is around the corner. Don't get me wrong, I am excited. I'm jubilant some might go as far to say. At the same time, I'm terrified. I'm gun-ho to get the heck outa Dodge (so to speak... I like westerns), but I've been here so long, its not a very comforting thought. Perhaps this is why I'm dragging my feet. I'm bad for that anyway. Its called anxiety mixed with procrastination.

I should note that I'm currently doped up on medicine (all perscribed).

Anywho, with so much to do in the next few weeks, maybe I won't have time to dwell on the fear the end is bringing closer and closer.

Nah. The fear is sneaky and likes to sneak up on me... Let's hope its not the paralyzing kind.

In the words of Billy, pastor of my church, its gonna be alright.

I really hate coming up with titles.

I'm just bad at them. They're no fun, titles.

I just got back from a brief stay in Myrtle Beach. The trip was amazing, probably my best vacation ever. I spent the trip with two of my favorite people in the world. I think the pictures are reason enough as to why. A couple of other friends with as well. The trip led to a number of quotes and funny experiences, as always. I'm so glad we decided to go.

As we were coming back up to Kentucky, it occurred to me that this may be one of the last trips of this nature for Jessica, Becca, and I for a while. This fall, Jessica and I will both be starting graduate school, and it seems like its going to be in different states, much to our dismay. Becca, who doesn't necessarily want to stay here, is unsure of what she's going to do. For the first time in years, we will be physically separated by more than a couple of hours (or considerably less if Becca's driving). Even so, I'm not worried. Though I'm going to miss them terribly (I already do, and we aren't far apart now), I know nothing will change between us. We always seem to find a way to make it all okay, and I doubt long distance will affect that too much. Here's hoping!

Insomnia

So, here it is. I gave in. I made a blog. This is one of those things I swore off of once upon a time, something I try not to do (swearing off of things) because it never seems to last. However, after reading so many blogs written by others, I figured I could give it a whirl. Not to mention, I've discovered I have a lot of free time on my hands this semester and this is a constructive way to spend my time... Well, semi-constructive. And, there's the fact that I rarely sleep. When I started this little project, I was wide awake. Now, however.... Not so much. I should probably give up and try this again when I'm more coherent. I'll have something insightful to say next time... Well, semi-insightful.